Conditioned Kimi

Last night, I had a severe headache. Sometimes, I act very weak against any pain and I lose my patience and start to drop balls of tears, walking around the room, groaning and wriggling in pain. No way I can lie down and wait patiently until the medicine releases the pain. I used to awake my mum when the pain came to me in the middle of the night; she knew how to cure me. The most effective way was when she was caressing my forehead and saying prayers. Last night, I only did the prayer part. Sometimes, I am strong; no pain can make me miserable.

I thought of something last night. I used to recall my ex-boyfriend every time I see a perfect scene, a sweet smell, a sky full of stars or a complete moon, sunrise and sundown, a love song or any beauty. Now, I wept and had headache so much because of him that last night in the middle of the pain I recalled him. I am conditioned to pain as a reminder of him. God never make me a reminder of pain to anybody.

My cooking feats:

Today I cooked “Aash Maash” which is a kind of soup with chickling vetch. It was gorgeous (as my landlady said). Did you know that gorgeous can be used for a food? I didn’t know; I thought it can only be used for a cute guy. Btw, can it be?

A few days back I cooked “Zereshk polo ba morgh” which is barberry with rice and chicken. I forgot to add sugar in barberry and it was so sour. I never forget again.

I finally found fresh lamb shank in supermarket for the first time so you can guess that I had a very good dish of “baghali polo and mahiche” which is Limabean and rice with lamb. I don’t know why these Canadian people don’t eat lamb.

By the way, I had a haircut. I recommend the movie “Take the lead” to those who like ballroom dancing and Antonio Banderas. I enjoyed. For those who are not familiar with me I must say I got bored seeing Lord of the Ring and Harry potter and disgusted seeing King Kong. I know I know something is wrong with me.