Criticism
The only reader of my 5hip, which it's me, criticized this weblog. She said why all the posts are about him? Don't you have any thing else in your life to write about?
You are getting lots of experiences everyday in this new place, and I'm sure you can more interesting stuffs than these junks. You have to be ashamed of your thoughts. Would you like someone think and write about your husband? You must think of her. She is innocent.
Although I completely respect her, but I told her that I do have a lot of things to write but the only reason that I made this weblog( Except practicing English) is that to say my words those I don't have anybody to listen. I'm tired of repeating these discussions with myself. I had to find a way to get rid of them and I found this way to be useful not completely but almost. I don't want to say my mum; She'll be sad. I don't want to tell my friends here; I will lose my pride. I don't want to tell my close friends; they will be sad and they probably suggest nonuse ideas because they have no idea I'm drowning in which kind of hell.
The truth is I'm thinking about him every second so if I want to write my thoughts nothing can overtake him . In addition, I don't blame myself to think about her husband; I believe that he is mine. Although she is innocent but she is stupid. I would never accept someone as my husband just in 2 months when I know that he has been with someone else for 5 years until the day before I met him. This can happen only if the girl is so desperate to find a husband. I know I don't have the right to think about other peoples properties but believe me that if she knew about me, she did bad to me. This is not a good way to be happy. She might not know about me; That would be Ok for her. I think he probably said to her ( to be honest) I had a girl for some times, and I liked her but we haven't been matched, and last year she left me and went to Sweden, and it's one year that it's over. Now, I forgot her and I want to make a new life with you. This is definitely a lie.
After our discussion about her Criticism, I guess she was not satisfied. I could see in her eyes that she thinks I'm a silly girl. Also, I know from inside that I just made excuses. I have to move on. But how?
PS: Hani told me to write in paper with red pen, and then burn them. It seems good Idea; I don't know if I do that.
You are getting lots of experiences everyday in this new place, and I'm sure you can more interesting stuffs than these junks. You have to be ashamed of your thoughts. Would you like someone think and write about your husband? You must think of her. She is innocent.
Although I completely respect her, but I told her that I do have a lot of things to write but the only reason that I made this weblog( Except practicing English) is that to say my words those I don't have anybody to listen. I'm tired of repeating these discussions with myself. I had to find a way to get rid of them and I found this way to be useful not completely but almost. I don't want to say my mum; She'll be sad. I don't want to tell my friends here; I will lose my pride. I don't want to tell my close friends; they will be sad and they probably suggest nonuse ideas because they have no idea I'm drowning in which kind of hell.
The truth is I'm thinking about him every second so if I want to write my thoughts nothing can overtake him . In addition, I don't blame myself to think about her husband; I believe that he is mine. Although she is innocent but she is stupid. I would never accept someone as my husband just in 2 months when I know that he has been with someone else for 5 years until the day before I met him. This can happen only if the girl is so desperate to find a husband. I know I don't have the right to think about other peoples properties but believe me that if she knew about me, she did bad to me. This is not a good way to be happy. She might not know about me; That would be Ok for her. I think he probably said to her ( to be honest) I had a girl for some times, and I liked her but we haven't been matched, and last year she left me and went to Sweden, and it's one year that it's over. Now, I forgot her and I want to make a new life with you. This is definitely a lie.
After our discussion about her Criticism, I guess she was not satisfied. I could see in her eyes that she thinks I'm a silly girl. Also, I know from inside that I just made excuses. I have to move on. But how?
PS: Hani told me to write in paper with red pen, and then burn them. It seems good Idea; I don't know if I do that.
posted by Kimia @ 10:16 AM
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