Live, laugh and love

The land of free and the home of brave finally agreed that I deserve to see my parents here in my home. I am so happy and I can’t stay calm in my skin whenever I remember that they will be here in no more than two months.

I am seriously looking for an apartment before they come and then I can quit thinking and I am sure my mom would decorate it for me and my father would take care of all manly stuff and I’ll be again the little girl without any responsibilities and I love that feeling and I missed it so much. Life and hope broadly came back to my days. Nothing does matter to me at this time but the family "reunion" for New Year.

It's only family that will stay with us. Friends even the best ones will forget us.

New York not Paris

My mysterious guy has brought his latest surprise for me. This name is seriously the best name someone ever labeled him.

It’s real hard, time and energy consuming, brain occupying and daydream making to start knowing someone, making friendship, reaching to the point of caring and beginning to have feelings. God damn it; he blew it cheaply. I must have upset him big time with my cruel language. He didn’t even pay me an explanation.

I have not yet written about my trip to New York because I was waiting for the time to be able to make a conclusion of the trip. It seems that the time is not coming close and it’s gonna stay like an open folder in my memory at least for awhile. Some parts of the trip were absolutely fabulous even better than my dreams. We visited Liberty Island and some parts of Metropolitan museum and we walked in the city of most of the movies we ever saw. It was amazing.

If you are in love

I am the cruelest person with animals. Although I never have the heart to hunt or hurt them but in responding to their pure unconditional feelings and emotions I am not gifted.

My landlady has three cats with three different characteristics. One of them was a kitten when I came here and according to my landlady, he is an absolute sweetheart.

As much as I toss him out of my room, he comes to me more and pets himself with my foot. He never gets upset; he never breaks up with me and gets mad at me. I never think that this animal doesn’t have dignity or pride. I always think that he is full of love. No matter how bad I behave he comes to me again and embarrasses me.

If you were able to forgive someone continuously; forgot the pain he caused with only one word; if you were always willing to go for conciliation even though you were the one who had been disrespected; know that what you feel is love. If you walk forward to fix the problem, It’s not dignity that you lose, it’s a proof of a strong love.

Tag

Finally someone asked me to participate in this tag game :D Thanks to Alireza .

1) I am strong, I am not fast but I have endurance.
2) My first reaction to any triggers like anger, sadness, happiness, excitement, pain, emotions and injustice is cry. That is not the sign of weakness.
3) I am a controlling person and I like to boss people around but I am a kind of boss whose commands are not what she wants but what she think people want.
4) I love team sports and games.
5) I never go back on my word.

I believe what I think I am is not as important as what my friends see in me. I often doubt about how I express myself because I sometimes see very disappointing reactions from my friend's side. I feel like they have no idea who I am and how I feel.
What I would like to ask from my few friends who come visit my blog is to tell me in a sentence how they see me. That may help me to improve. This is not the place that I expect to read compliments. I need the bitter truth although there might be a sweet truth as well. Even friends who are connected to me only with my blog may have a very correct idea about me cause this spot is the most honest place I express myself in.

People who I am much interested to know about them are those who I check their weblog silently and never put any comments and they never come to pay me a visit. I don't know how I can give them the tag. So I am gonna ask my best friends to disclose 5 secrets about themselves that they think I don't know.

Sara
Yousef
Roozbeh